Travel Solo

 Hey, it has been so long i did not update here. first of all, am i happy now? yes i am, i am happy for myself but in term of partner or new relationship? i kinda confused about it. am i ready for a new relationship? do i really need a partner? that i have to figure it out

however, i have stopped seeing my therapist. because i moved out and i cant meet my therapist. we did online but it wasnt good for me, i prefer face to face session with the therapist. when i stopped therapist, i felt a little bit crazy as i dont have homework from the therapist. lol. so i went to another country for travelling solo.

let me be honest, i travelled alone in a country that i have never been, it was good at the first day. i went to bar, club and dancing all alone. i met new people here and there. i even met someone who matched on tinder. lol and obviously it happened one night stand. gosh i miss sex but i dont like short term sex? it just that moment i had a good time sex but yea... it has no affection or longterm relationship.

when i go to another place alone, a shop, a nature places, a theater i have seen. it was good. i feel like oh yea i can do all alone, but i found out it would be good if i have a partner who understand me. turns out i need time to find a new partner. 

i installed tinder, bumble, bumby? i just uninstalled bumby lol it was not good for me. so much buggy. lol. tinder was okay for one night stand i gues. bumble i have no idea yet but it was good match and just a chat.

i think i need to figure it out who i am but until now i could not find who i am. all i think now how to make money without working hahhaha im so lazy. 

after short travel solo, i was like why i have to work? now i understand why some people willingly to become a sugar baby. they got free money and give free body lol unless you are cute or whatsoever.

it has been long time i didnt write on my goodnotes as my journal. my ipad is like idk where i put it. maybe somewhere underbed lol. i work remotely and now i wish i work anywhere via remote.

last, do i need someone in my life? i do. but im not ready for commitment. i think i need someone who really loves me and rich lol

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