Intercourse After Divorced

I just came while work from home by using my vibrator. It was so good. I dont remember which type of vibrates because there are a lot of type vibrates haha. such a relieved. i bet this is ovulation moment. lol. 

i am not seeing anyone after divorced but i felt like i need someone to fuck but at the same time i am afraid of HIV or STD things. people nowadays fuck around i guess? i am not sure. if i found on dating app, that person wont be last longer. it is hard to find someone and stick to one dick. of course the condom is technically fine but for me, i dont know. but dude, i lost my virginity after married. my sexuality go wild unfortunately he fucked with someone else maybe i am not good on bed as first timer. lol. 

do i have to find someone to fuck? dude, really? i am not a hoe but maybe coming soon when i travel around the world? i have a plan which next year would be my prime my glow up or whatever people say that is new me after divorced. i have so much plan for myself and that would be fine right?

sitting alone at home while work from home is such a peace but at the same time loneliness came. i smoked a lot at the balcony. i feel dizzy now because of smoke. i should stop smoke. it is really not healthy. i have to start healthy life. eat healthy but not that easy. oh wait. i think because i havent eat anything much. well, i dont have appetite to eat to be honest. maybe one day i have that mood to eat healthy

sex. i have this rule which i dont like to fuck around. but should i started to fuck around just because of my horniness? this ovulation is really kill me but thanks to my vibrator with small dick toy i guess? oh god now im thinking after work, i would go again to the vibrator or should i call david? why that vibrator name david? i have no idea. i think it needs a name. haha. nobody knows yeh but only me lol

feeling to have someone, to have affection. gosh i need that. i need someone honestly. i need someone but maybe this is part of healing that no need a person. i dont know for how long i have to stay like this. maybe it takes a few months i guess?

whatever. i just want to say that vibrator is help me alot like reallly. without human touch but only me touch my own breast and vibrator touch my vagina haha. 

i wish someone touch me tho. this is not stressful about intercourse it just i need affection maybe? goshhh i have to go through all this shit. welcome back to single after loooong years. lol 

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