Nameless Scarlett

 I was packing my stuff from his house. Oh my, I am crying right now because of the memories. The way he provided me the house, the comfortable but not my emotionally. I love the comfort of this house. It is not that big but I am comfy with this house. Now I have to go back my parents house. Which I dont like it.  I dont like to go to my parents house because of the messy. I have to clear up all the mess. I have to make my own room clean again. Of course I would deco my brother's room but yeah I am gonna miss this house. I kinda miss our memories of this house. Our memories the marriage, the love we had. gosh, the healing journey is so hard. i wish i can go out this house as soon as possible. my dad has already picked up my stuff into his truck. still have a few boxes but i managed to bring it by myself home soon. oh my, dear my ex husband I miss you but I dont want you back in my life. Never. but i had have gave you my best love to you. I realized this is my first time being ...

 I am not fully move on after divorced on September 2025 but I could say 20% moved on. Yet I still have to meet him for some reason to settle up our shits. Do I need someone right now? I am not ready yet into a new relationship. Do I feel lonely? Yes I am but I am enjoy my own company in the house, in my room. It just that I am not going out much. I could go out but just be behave for some reasons.  Every time the flashback came, I accepted the pain. I saw on tiktok that about obsessive the pain? I am not sure of it. I know it takes time to move on and healing but I believe in myself that whatever I do, is just for myself.  What if in few months or few years he text/call me? Depend on the situation, is it important or not but if he try to get back, I wont getback with a cheater. Am I feeling regret right now? No I am not but I want someone. I dont care if a friend or platonic friendship or friend with benefit. Just someone, you know?  I am trying not to tweet or post...